Monday, May 17, 2010

robots anonymous

Today I've been thinking back to a quote one of my students left for me in a sketchbook. I hadn't heard it before, but it is definitely comforting and one to think on...emerson
I'm having another one of those days weeks with the confidence is pretty darn low. Ordinarily, I'd be embarrassed to say this out loud, let alone share it here. But, I'm making changes you know...trying to grow as a person and all that jazz. And what I'm recognizing in the process is that we all fail, we all have off-days...that's what makes us human...which is much better than being a robot.

Fortuitously, I believe the name of my blog was ahead of it's time: 'an open [sketch]book'... not 'a partially-cracked [sketch]book'. Sub-consciously, I must have known 4 years ago that I was going to have things I needed to deal with out loud and in my sketchbook today. And, at the risk of T.M.I., I plan to do just this. Sure, most of the time its rather cushy around here. I can be a cushy-kind-of girl, but some days I'm not and that's ok.

14 comments:

aimee said...

our mornings ran parallel - i needed to see this today! keep your pen to paper - your drawings will help you through it!

suzanne cabrera said...

:)

the art of curiosity said...

Don't forget that you're not on your own. If you ever want to rage or share, please feel free to email this particular stranger.

I think I'm a reasonably good listener, I definitely respect people's privacy & I've been there myself. I also promise not to proffer unwanted advice ;-) So I'm here should you ever need an ear!

no way said...

I have considered this topic many times, Suzanne-what to share, what not to share. I hate to write about anything that might be too much of a "downer" (even though very few people read my blog anyway.)

On a related note, I am reading a book right now called "The Happiness Project" that I love, love, love. I guess it's pretty popular-apparently she's been on Oprah, etc. and the book is well-known. I love the things it is making me think about, really interesting stuff. Perhaps you'd like it as well.

m allison r said...

Suzanne, have you ever heard of a book called The Artist's Way, by Julia Cameron? It is a fabulous book and I think you would benefit from it at this point in your life :)
You should check it out....
Here's to that open sketchbook ;)
Allison

heather lorin said...

Suzanne,

I can't tell you how many times I've reinvented myself. Sometimes it's just a tweak; other times it's a wholesale change. I've definitely had my share of failures and challenges in the process. It's never fun in the moment but it sure does make you wiser the next time around. Good luck! :)

sketchbloom said...

...by the way I always thought your open sketchbook name entailed an open sketchbook nature :)

la ninja said...

of course it is okay. I'm generally the queen of "cushy" and keeping my *@)/*! to myself (blog-wise) but yes, we are human and yes, it is fine. hooray to crappy days too.

(how we push ourselves to always seem jolly, ei! bah. :)

Anonymous said...

cheers and all the best for a good week ahead!
~window siller :-) :-)

Laure Ferlita said...

Not to make light of a heavy subject, but.....

....what "exactly" is wrong with the occasional struggle, stumble, failure, or bad day.......how boring and dull we would be and how unenthusiastic we would be for our lives if it ran perfect or cushy all the time!

Embrace it! The good, the bad and the ugly!!

cindy said...

keep going, suzanne :). i love the quote, but, you know what? i can't have too many inspirational quotes around me, anymore. there is such a pressure to live up to all of them at once. if you're not being told to 'keep calm and carry on' it's 'don't put your happy life on hold'. one at a time and i love your sketch for this one, so it's a keeper!

Troy said...

hey suzanne ... i always hate knowing that you're feeling down because you're one of the neatest people i know! i've said this to you before ... and now i'll say it publicly ... going through tough times like these make you appreciate your talents and gifts all the more when you get to the other side. i agree with laure ... it's all part of the journey (even though, while you're in the midst of it, it totally SUCKS!!) and it really does pay off in the end.

and i HAVE to point out that you said what you're going through now is a process. *** PROCESS *** this is a word you know all too well from iarc, and i bet you can't count the times you told a student who was bummed about having a crappy sketch or model, that it's process ... the good and bad ... that leads to beautiful things. so a bad sketch doesn't mean we failed, it just means we try a new approach the next time, and then we keep on trying and improving and growing.

i really hope this sounded supportive and not too preachy. i don't mean for it to sound preachy and just may not be expressing myself very well. but i really do support you, suzanne, and just want you to know that you'll get through this and be totally amazing!

Kelly Harris said...

I must say Suzanne, this post made me smile :) Ralph Waldo Emerson is one of my favorite authors of all time. And as for being down in the dumps or feeling stressed out, here is another quote that might help in the future. "What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us." this quote has always brought me great courage, strength, and inspiration when my life too is not so cushy.

suzanne cabrera said...

Thanks for all your sweet and thoughtful comments. xoxo.